Finding Myself OMG: A Bullshit Quest

Well, where do I start? I'm struggling, I suppose, to find out who I am outside of who my parents want me to be, who my friends want me to be, or who my own perfectionist tendencies (totally personified) want me to be. I don't know if this blog will really document my progress in, ahem, coming of age, or if it will just basically be a place for me to vent and blab about nothing. We shall see.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

somebody get me out of here

I still am at a loss for words. It's hard, since I've always defined myself so much as a writer, and words are such an important part of my identity. All I can do is stare at the blank page. Nothing comes out.

Grief has robbed me of my voice.

Eh. Anyway, my mom and Cordelia and I are holding up okay. I'm leaving tomorrow night for a much needed vacation. I'm off to sunny warm Myrtle Beach for spring break. I had made the plans to go a long time ago, and my dad had even helped me to pay for it. I didn't know for a while whether I was going to go or not, because I didn't want to leave my mom and the dog alone. But my mom's got a lot of friends and activities planned, and she and Cordy have each other. Everybody tells me I should go, and I'm excited. It'll be nice to get away from here, from the house and the memories. Just relax and get my mind off of this and when I come back in a week, hopefully my batteries will be recharged and I'll be shiny and energetic and able to cope with moving on.

That was a very run-on sentence-y paragraph.

Okay, so ciao for a bit. Happy Easter/Passover/spring to everyone!

2 Comments:

  • At 2:47 PM, Blogger Lydia said…

    See? You wrote that just fine.

    I'm glad you're going, you'll have a lot of fun :D

     
  • At 11:12 AM, Anonymous Laila said…

    Happy Easter/Passover/Spring to you back!!!!!

     

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